ok, so everything, and i mean everything we had "planned" about jacob's arrival took a complete 180 at about noon today. we are both still fine...let me start out by saying that. tim and i went to my regularly scheduled 40 week appointment at 10:30 this morning. after waiting quite a bit longer than normal, we got to see dr. williams about 11:15. she did my exam, said i was 3cm dilated but still not completely effaced and that jacob was still really high. we started discussing inductions for next week. so far, so good. then, tim asked, how big do you think he is? dr. williams pushed around on my belly for a few minutes and told us she thought he was probably 8 1/2 pounds or so. and since she knew sarah was 8lbs 11oz. she thought that was probably fine for a delivery. but, she said she wanted to get a fetal weight on ultrasound just to check on his size. she said it would make sense that he wasn't coming down into the birth canal if he was large.
so, tim and i wait a little longer, and go into the ultrasound room to check out jacob's size. sidenote: at NO point in this pregnancy has ANYONE mentioned worry over jacob's size. at 36 weeks, they thought he was over 7lbs already, but didn't act worried about it IN THE LEAST. so, this alone kinda threw us for a loop. anyways...so, the ultrasonographer does her thing and starts getting estimated weights ranging from 9lbs 13oz to well over 10lbs. yikes! now, she repeatedly says that weights at this point are skewed because he's not "free floating" in there anymore. she said weights can be off by as much as 1lb at this point. fine if he's a pound smaller, SCARY if he's a pound larger!!!
we had to wait a little AGAIN for dr. williams to finish a patient so we could talk with her. basically, dr. williams said we needed to do what was safest for me and baby. of course, this is our top concern as well! so, she said if she induces me there is a large chance that i wouldn't be able to deliver him anyway because of his size. so, long story even longer...
now we are having a c-section at 5:30 IN THE AFTERNOON tomorrow. we have to be at the hospital at 3:30pm. thankfully, my sweet friend alison who has had 2 sections called tonight and talked me through some of my questions. its been over 4 years since i went to a childbirth class where c-section procedures were taught!!! and i SO know better than looking up stuff on the internet! always worst case scariest scenario!
after a very tearful day, i am trying to wrap my brain around all of this. again, we OF COURSE want whatever is safest and best for baby. but, its still a MUCH different outcome than we were anticipating. and, all together now, we KNOW how much i LOVE to plan everything out... so, i am trying to make peace with all of this. i KNOW that as soon as baby jacob gets here, all of this worry and planning and stressing will seem like a silly little distant memory. but, i do covet your prayers over the next 20 hours or so. for peace, and patience, and calmness, and stress-less-ness...and for a healthy baby!!!